well, ive been busy. 1] i have a 20 pg paper for my marketing class, 2] i also have a paper for english class. those are the two things occupying my time.
but the real reason i came on here was to express some feelings, maybe someone can help me out?
okay so theres this guy i like. ive known him since like february or so, when i started playing softball at school. hes a cool guy, a little shy though. last semester, he was talking to one of my friends and i never really thought much about him, except that he was cute... well things didnt work out for him and my friend. but when we came back to school this semester, i developed a crush on him, like huge. idk if it was because he cut his hair, and looked even better than before... well, it wasnt till mid-october that i told him about my crush. and that's only because my ex-roomie, who is good friends with him, practically forced me to. well, he "knows" now. idk if he realizes that i really do like him. well, my [reliable source] told me that he was already talking to some girl. and i could tell she didn't really like her, cuz she describe her by saying " the freshie in the other house, that watches porn with her roommate" [ewh] well, i heard from someone else that the chick was a pretty easy girl. ive even seen pics of her making out with her roomie [ so much for katy perry's i kissed a girl] and also pics of them using the bathroom, butt showing and tissue in hand! i couldve cared less about the girl, except for the fact that i found out via facebook, that he decided to give her relationship status on his bday! how much more of n idiot can he be! i mean he can be ditzy n ackward, but i thought i heard you were just gonna hit it and dip? [which btw would not be happening with me by any chance] im sorta mad at him! it couldve been any girl but her! well what can i say. i cant really get mad at him, can i? 1] hes not my boyfriend 2] we werent even talking 3] he probably doesnt even know i like him that much..... idk if i feel hurt or what. hes the 1st guy i can say i really like since my last relationship ended two yrs ago. then, theres the issue of race: hes white, im......im not even BLACK, my parents are african! could it be any worse? idk if he doesnt like black girls.... i wish i knew for sure, then maybe thatll help me stop liking him [ although my ex-roomie wouldnt have pushed my to tell him, or say that she thinks we should talk....] but i can't... he's intelligent, but dumb enough to make that chick his girl..... and then on top of that, my friends hype me up, because he always says hi to me. idk if he's just tryna be nice? or could he like me a lil? they say hes pressed to say hi to me. then one time we were in the cafeteria at the same time. and i was talking to this guy who was my friends old roomie. i didnt see him, but he was close to us, and when we left the caf, my friends told me he looked mad, cuz i was talking to that boy! why do my friends do this to me?!? they get me excited, but then he never said anything to me about the crush. does he wanna take up my offer? or if he just being the sweet guy he is? oh my......
