What it’s like to wear shorts when you’re fat:

• Just one step forward and you feel your fat all over your body jiggling.
• With every step you take, your thighs rub together, creating a burning sensation after only about 5 steps.
• It’s as disgusting as seeing yourself naked, because all you have to do is look down and see how fat you really are. 
• With every step you take you’re but fat smacks against your thigh fat, yeah, it does hurt a little. 
• Wearing shorts when your fat decreases your confidence even more.
• Seeing other people look good in shorts makes you hate your body more.
• Sitting down is beyond the worst, because now all your fat is spread out and exposed to the world.
• Barely any shorts that use to look half way decent, now look completely horrible on you, that’s IF you can get them on.
• It is hot out. You are hot. But you can’t get cool because you want to cover up your body.
• Now your belly fat isn’t just hanging over jeans, but now your shorts too, COME ON. And not to mention your thigh fat, poping out of the bottom part of your shorts… come on, really now?! And these shorts were BIG on you last year, now they barley zip.
• Shorts when you’re fat means bending over while wearing them without showing the world where you stash your crack will NOT be possible
• Tight shorts means, CAMEL TOE.
• Tight shorts means, nothing in your pockets, NOTHING. Not even folded cash.
• Tight shorts manage to turn a panty line into a canyon on your ass.
• Muffin top, muffin bottom. You look like and feel like you’re a giant, puffy muffin stuffed into a pair of tight-ass shorts.
• Walking for an hour in shorts, means having your thighs hurt from shaking and rubbing together so much.
• You have to walk with a waddle, because your thigh fat gets in the way of walking normally.
• You sit uncomfortably on the edge of the chair because your thigh fat will spread out if you don’t and you would end up looking like an elephant.
• Every step you take you have to pull the shorts back down because your fat thighs keep making them ride up.
• It’s hot out and your feeling hot because you have to stay covered up, so you can’t possibly cool down.
• What’s usually hidden under your jeans will be exposed through shorts.
• Chafing will be caused by that thigh fat rubbing together when you wear shorts.

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This is so depressing

I don't wear shorts, and I just had to highlight points that were about me.. I guess it's the real reason why I don't wear shorts, not only because of my parents, but because I'm too fat for them. [And honestly, idk how people bigger than me can bear to put them on! If I thought I looked ridiculous, what do they look like!]

That being said, I guess I'll post what I've seen on some people twitter bio and tumblr accounts. It's embarassing.

HW 211 CW ~* LW 136 GW 160 UGW 150

I'm embarassed to say what my current weight is, but just know that my HW is really bad, and this is after I talked with my doctor about losing weight, before I even hit 200lbs! Idk what happened with me, how've I've let myself go!

And what I hate is when my friends tell me that I'm not even that big, when my parents keep reminding me every time I come home, or when one of my best friends who was bigger than me is now losing to the point that she may be a size or two smaller than me! It really makes me cry on the inside, and sometimes I just feel like being anorexic, bulimic. Because I get mad at my body, how big I am, wishing that I was skinny, was smaller....


Welp, don't be surprised if I start going in, posting stuff about being skinny, losing weight, pics of skinny people and whatnot

This is supposed to be the summer I turn my body around.

journal entry

so iFeel like im about to go into a stage of depression or something.


it really sux being a size 12/14 [sQueezing into a size 30] ... depending on who im wearing.


today iSat down w my friend Mel to eat some sushi, only to find out that my jeans ripped! WTF! and trust, they arent destroyed jeans where it wont matter if they rip... im tired of my thighs rubbing together!!! its not cool, iWant for my thighs to have that space in between them. you know. like the models have...

6 Minute Morning: Flat Stomach

so iPicked up this book sometime in the fall from TJ Maxx [only 2bucks] and read some of it, but havent gone back to it.

now. iKnow iAm a procrastinator at times. and iAm dying to lose up to 40lbs [my dr told me iNeed to anyways] and get that washboard stomach.

so whose ready to get serious and get a flat stomach by the time early summer rolls around??

According to the book, iShld follow a healthy diet in addition to an exercise routine for a flatter stomach.

• Eat, little and often, a varied diet. Avoid wheat products which cause bloating [anyone heard of the NO BREAD diet. thats gotta be hard. iKnow iLuh me some king's hawaiian bread... smh]
• Choose a wide selection of FRESH fruit and vegetables, reduce consummation of saturated fats.
• Eat SITTING DOWN, and chew THOROUGHLY, at least 15min so the brain can receive the msg from the stomach that its full.
• Dont eat alot of starchy carbs, eg rice, bread, potatoes, pastas [iAlready need this.] These are stored mostly as fat. Not cool
• Bye-Bye soda [all sodas, even diet & caffeine free]. They cause bloating bcuz theyre loaded w toxins! [Well thank goodness iStopped drinkin soda 3yrs ago! iOnly have it <5/yr>
• Avoid processed foods, ready made meals which are loaded w salt, sugar, and chemicals! [so iGuess lean cuisines count hunh? lol. and any trips to McDonalds need to be avoided too, even though they arent so often.]
• Salt reduction!
• Cookies, confectionery, and cakes! They promote cravings rather than sustained energy levels. [see therein lies my problems. i've got an XXXtremely sweet tooth for baked goods! *sigh*]

BUT dont forget to exercise. as for me, im one that loves to go to the gym but hasnt been there in a while. iMean walking to my classes & stuff, barely taking the bus counts rite??

well, iGuess it doesnt count enough bcuz ive gained a couple pounds this school yr so far. so iThink its bout time iReally get serious about my weight. im tired of not buying new clothes cuz iDont want to outgrow them! its time for me to check myself in the mirror and change what iSee!

So who's bout to go buy there 6 Min Mornin Flat Stomach book and start this regimen w me?!?!?!!? as @iamdiddy says, #LETSGO!